just a life of an ordinary girl

2005-07-09T08:47:00.000-07:00

hahas. this time is nvr blog for five days.? starting to feel lazy to blog already. hahas. aniwae. the past five days were still the same. school, basketball, soccer and stuff. yeah. today is saturday. went to the dentist. den the dentist said that i mus put braces. wahahas. i was so bloody happy. now my dad has nothing to say. hahas. rushed for basketball practice at redhill. feeling quite satisfied and at the same time disappointed in myself today at today's training. not gonna sae y. hahas. but loving it man.! hahas. after that rush again for chinese tuition. hahas. today class was damn quiet. emily not there to disrupt the class with me. hahas. the poo siang was so quiet today. felt quite bored. hahas. nvm. now at home. feeling tired. but not gonna slp. hahas. =) byes.!

2005-07-04T05:48:00.000-07:00

hahas. didn't blog for three days already. didn't have the mood to blog you see. did nothing much within the passed three days either. jus went out. play some sports and stuff. =)

went out again today. to tiong bahru. went there to play badminton with church peeps. after that went to tiong bahru plaza to eat long john silver den went to watch war of the worlds. the movie was not bad larr. hahas. =p owe ppl lots of money after today. hahas. bleahs. after that we went separate ways. left me, zara and ryan. went to kovan to eat yoshinoya. hahas. =) ate salmon bowl as usual. den we left separate ways. AGAIN. hahas. waited for my dad to fetch me home. made lots of last minute decisions today. he was damn angry. *oops.!* now i'm at home sitting infront of the comp. doing nth. hahas. hope to slp early today.! =)

- there is no forever love in this worly but only forever pain. -
- down on my luck today. -

2005-07-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

another long day AGAIN.! haix. today dunnoe wads wrong with me. vomitted in the morning. only got well after i rested before recess. managed to take the chinese test. after school, went for jamming session. haix. was damn nervous and felt damn bloody inferior. didn't noe wad made me do this. but cheng long and peep were encouraging me all the while. *thks guys.!* after jamming had to go for soccer match against fajar. o man. nvr play with them before. felt damn odd. reach there in a taxi with yvonne. mr maran pay. hahas. =) reached there played the second half of the match. score was 6 - 0. we won. scored by charmaine and jasmine. hahas. =) great rites.? two down. five left. hope to continue to win.! =D after that went to eat KFC with eleanor, anne marie, tiffany, jasmine, joanna, charmaine and peeps den went home. reached home shower, watch tv, read my comics den came online. felt damn shagged. tmr going to play badminton. *since got no training* bleahs. nites dude.!

- sry guys.! couldn't play like what i did during the jamming practices.! -
- its all my fault -
- i'm sry -
- actually tot that you would be like those arrogant type but you're jus nice. =) -

2005-06-30T07:49:00.000-07:00

hahas. another long day today.! hahas. went to sch 'n' stuff. felt so tired today. especially during english. after sch we had band prac. =) everything went well. den at abt 4plus we went to punggol plaza to eat. den ben sing, leon, cheng long and me took a taxi down to wee lee music studio. booked for two hours. saw ppl play. damn cool.! hahas. charles couldn't come down.! idiotic freako. gave some stupid excuse larr. as usual. he was the one hu wanted us to play 'n' now we're like the ones hu are excited abt it.? wad the hell.!!! hahas. aniwae. band prac at wee lee was great too larr.! hahas. so cool. had greast fun.! lols. uncle at wee lee very good to us. kept giving us extra time. =) *thks uncle.! ^winks^ hehes. den my dad sent all of us back except for leon. it was out of the way. *sry leon.!* came back too a shower den started to do my hw. now i can't find my book to read for the test tmr. shitty larr. hahas. gd luck to me man.! hope i can find it. i jus bought it on monday.? hahas. gd luck man.! wish us luck for our performance tmr.! we can do it guys.! hahas. =)

- nervous -
- go further away from me, will u.? -
- its not my choice -

2005-06-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

hmmm. feeling very tired now. had a long day today. went to sch had lessons den after sch had soccer match against AMK.! great game man.! hahas. although i did not score any goals but gave assist bahs.? hahas. the score was 5 - 1 but AMK played a great game too.! =) nice one.! kept injurding ppl. paiseh. too rough le. can't change my nature. after that went back to school den met ben, went to get my drumsticks, draw money den went to the music studio. waited for quite a while den at 8pm we started practicing. haix. i still suck. jus din felt right. mayb i was very tired.? i dunnoe. den only at e few ending songs den i felt right. but still not quite right. hahas. i dunnoe larr. it was quite cool today. den my parents came to fetch me home. din managed to do my hw. ii'm so damn SHAGGED!!! hahas. gonna slp soon. nites.!

- hoping that i could continue to play. -
- may everything go right by tmr. -
- god bless me -

2005-06-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

second day of school. =) lessos were alright bahs.? everything went well until after sch when we had to do band prac. haix. i suck. really suck. i couldn't get anything right at all.! drums were either off beat or on the wrong beat. and rhythmn jus doesn't sound right. worst of all, i couldn't get the beat for some of e songs. haix. pek chek. how.!??!?! friday is coming closer and closer to me. haix. tmr got hair check and stuff. hahas. =) good luck to me. jus finished homework. i'm so damn tired. *yawn* feel like sleeping but still got clothes to spin dry. guess it will be another late night for me bahs. bleahs. hahas. *yawn* tts it. gonna read my comics. =)

- suddenly felt that my surrounding was so empty -
- wishing that everything would be right -
- feeling so hopeless -

2005-06-27T06:29:00.000-07:00

sry.! din update for two days. wanted to do that but stayed over at my uncle's place and internet connection was down. =p nth much happened during tt period. jus went there to study and stuff.

today was the first day of the second semester. had loads of new teachers. hahas. gonna have problems remembering names again.! hahas. sitting in the front again. dots.! nvm larr. at least i'm the only one unhappy, better than the whole class rites.? hahas. =D spent most of my time reading my story book in class. hahas. =D great rites.? lurve it. hahas. din had much lesson today. after sch had to discuss stuff abt youth day. e jamming thingy was so last minute. haix. i am gonna throw my face away lorr. hahas. mus wear mask on that day. hahas. after the meeting had to go for mep talk. hahas. it was abt half an hour or so lar. den ltr went to eat at compass wif miko and joelyn. after that we walked and walked arnd compass den went home. hahas. now at home. stucked wif so much carried over hw. dunnoe how ta finish them. hahas. wish me luck.! *winks* =)

- i'm still me -
- you made me give up my trust in ppl. made me think that i shld defend myself from those ppl. being afraid that i would be listening to lies from ppl instead of the truth. made me feel so cheated. -

2005-06-24T08:45:00.000-07:00

todae woke up at abt 8plus watch tv den play piano den went for lesson at ten. ended early today. den ltr went for badminton in sch. mommy got half day. den she bought lunch back and sent me for badminton. after badminton went to play basketball opposite sch there wif church peeps. =) den after that went to doc john's house to eat dinner. left with joseph and i-zack. went to auntie diana's house to complete my e maths hw. hahas. finally.! gonna start wif a maths tmr. =) bleahs. watch tv. talk to joseph. sang some songs. den my parents came to pick me up. went to my another aunt's house to pick something up den went home. now blogging. tired. went out the whole day.?

- i'm still me -

2005-06-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

hehes. today is a very tiring day for me bahs.? woke up at abt 7 in e morning cuz my stupid stomach hurts for no reason. mayb i ate too much last night.? bleahs. hahas. den i watch tv all the way until 0930 den go and bathe. left the house at 1015. going to plaza singapura to watch INITIAL D wif wan sia, yong zhi and trist. hehes. so cool. =p watched the 1150 movie. the movie so damn rocks.! hahas. lurve it man. JAY CHOU SO COOL.! AND SHUAI TOO.! hahas. make me want to drive car even more.! hahas. =p den ltr we went to taka and eat macs den walked to heeren to take neoprints. hehes. den walked to pacific plaza. saw lots of initial d photos on e way and took pictures. hahas. den we took photos wif the posters oso. hahas. it was so damn embarassing lorr. hahas. all thanks to wan sia lar. hahas. pull me go take. bleahs. lame rites.? hahas. after going to pacific plaza we all went home. felt tired all the way. kept yawning. hahas. INITIAL D ROCKS.! hahas. i am so crazy abt initial d now lor. hahas. bleahs.

- follow your own star -
- competition is not about competiting with people but competiting with yourself -

2005-06-22T08:27:00.000-07:00

hehes. sorry.! din blog for so many days. went to camp lar. hahas. went on sunday and came back today.! hehes. camp rocks man.! jaguar (grp name) rocks.! hehes. bleahs. our cheer damn funny sia. got mr jamil inside de. hahas. enjoyed the whole camp alot. learnt lots of stuff. hahas. lurve my room mates.! they are *drumrolls* liling, luoer, clarrisa.! hahas. and my bunk mates too.! (rachel, linda and chelmin.) hahas. had so much fun although i came back scratching myself all over because of rafting. i have dis stupid skin allergy lar. idiotic. hahas. feeling very tired. but lurve the camp instructors lots.! hahas. INSTRUCTOR JASON.! YOU ROCK.!

jaguar cheer
jaguar jaguar on the run
jamil see us also run
come and fight us you will lose
we are always number one
don't believe come try us
come come come try us
we will let you kiss our arse.!
na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na na (one more time) *X2*

hungry cheer
hungry hungry *clap clap*
very very *clap clap*
hungry very *clap clap*
very hungry *clap clap*
ci ka la ka pi ya pi ya *X2*
jia.! (in hokkien. it means eat actually)

feel good cheer
we feel good.! *ar!*
oh we feel so good.! *ar!*
oh we feel so *X2*
oh we feel so good.!
*ar.!* (X4)

missing camp.!

2005-06-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

very tired today.! woke up at seven plus den had to go to school for LTC briefing. hahas. shld be quite fun bahs.? bleahs. briefing ended at abt eleven plus den went to eat in the canteen den go up hall practice my service. was so bored lor. idiotic glenn. promised to come b4 one but came much much later. hahas. nvm. was so tired that i slpt in the hall. hahas. had badminton training. was totally off form. can't believe it. haix. damn sad sia. had training until five liddat den went to eat dinner at hougang mall. takeaway our food and went to aljunied town council to see kuang mao they all play badminton. played for awhile today lar. =D den went off cus need to buy stuffs for LTC. went to my aunt house for my mom to do her stuffs den went to hougang point NTUC to buy stuffs. hahas. spent quite alot of money there. $126 plus plus i think. hahas. can't rmb. LTC coming. hahas. i am so excited. can't wait to go INITIAL D MOVIE IS COMING OUT TOO!!!! hahas. i wan go WATCH.!!!! gonna watch wif ah sia. =) jay chou rocks.! hehes.

kept having the song we sang in church camp in my head. the song is called free. love this paragraph of it.

if i had wings i would fly
cus u're all that i need
if e world came down upon me
with u i'll still hold on
u're all i ever need

- tired -
- excited -
- =) -

2005-06-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

i'm back from camp le.! hehes. had great fun during camp. took lots and lots of pics. hahas. enjoyed myself so much there. we had lots of stuffs to do and free time.! i was like playing pool everyday lorr. hahas. two ringgit per game. hahas. sure play like siao. but ate fish everyday cus tts like the only food that doesn't have chilli in it. hahas. went swimming for two days straight.! picked pebbles and seashells for me aunt. they were so beautiful.! =) damn fun.! reached singapore at abt four plus.? den daddy picked me up from church 'n' sent me 'n' kai ma yi yi home. went home, bathe den went out again. gonna watch the pck musical. it was ok lorr. ate dinner b4 going home. here i am now. dead beat.! hahas. i am so tired. hope to go to church camp next year again.! whee.!!!! need to prepare for my nxt camp again dis sunday.! =D

- pspc church camp 2005 rocks.! -
- miss church camp -

2005-06-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

todae woke up quite late bahs.? 10.30 am.? hehes. den watch abit of tv. cooked my noodles. ate the same kind for e thrid day already. bleahs. doesn't matter. i like it. *winks* hahas. den rush for bball match. tot that i was late only to find out that i reached there 40minutes earlier. hahas. i got to play today.! hehes. so happy.! =D we won.! bleahs. gd play. =) after that my parents came to fetch me den go tampines mall. hehes. go buy alot of stuff. bought a wallet for myself. a mini wallet actually. very cute. but e price!!!! o man. $21.60 very xin tong. first time buy sth so expansive for myself. hahas. den bought a wallet for my dad, father's day gift.! den my mom pay for the shirt that comes wif my wallet. hehes. =D $6.90 i lurve it.! bleahs. my dad bought for me a bag.! hahas. he hardly buys bag for me. hehes. went to eat ya kun for dinner. hahas. den go my granny's house. watch show. take stuffs. den left. hahas. den their house blackout.! hahas. so qiao. den had to go back to help out. reached home at abt 9 or 10 plus. bathe, watch tv den now trying my best to pack finish my bag.! but i can't find my FBT pants.!!!! e reversible pants. all my sista's fault. lend to her den now missing. everytime liddat. pek chek. hahas. gotta go pack bag le.!!!! church camp tmr.!! hurray! =)

- church camp tmr.! -
- excited -
- bleahs -
- happy -
- =) -

2005-06-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

felt better after thursdae when i went out walking arnd all alone den i saw my lao po.! noel. hehes. =) thks lots. =D

had piano in the morning. den ltr badminton. jus dunnoe how to explain how 'suay' i was todae. cooked me lunch but forgotten to spin dry me pe shirt. forgotten to bring racket. only brought one of mr alex's specs. lent my shoe to my sis den got no shoe to wear. wore the old pair of nike shoes only to find out that the shoe is spoilt. bits and pieces were coming out from it every step that i take. hahas. ate my father's day dinner (mom's side) at peng's restaurant. always eat there. but the food there oso not bad lar. hehes. =) so doesn't really matter.? *smiles* saturday tmr.! =D church camp coming.!

-countdown to church camp: 2 days-
-not so moody already-
-learning to take it and let it go-
-trust.???-

2005-06-08T20:08:00.000-07:00

got nth to do and didn't noe wad to do so came toblog early today. saw this song on mtv. tot the lyrics was really meaningful and somewad so was related to the mood that i was having now.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you,
I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson

- not every girl can take it the same way as i did -
- not in the mood -

2005-06-08T04:36:00.000-07:00

hehes. ytd nvr blog. paiseh. all my comps were down. =p lucky todae can work. =D nth much happen ytd bahs.? jus went to ppl's house watch vcds and stuffs lorr. den at nite gt bball match. din play. nvm. =D will have chance de.! hehes. although we din win but jia you.! we will win the nxt match.! =D

todae woke up at abt 10+ bahs. den pei me sis go for her violin lessons. damn! wan borrow library books but cannot. still haven pay my fine for my lost book.! bleahs. hahas. mus start saving liao. lols. den went for badminton cca. gt video taking. hahas. saw myself on e video. damn funny. felt very odd. bt gd lar. saw my mistakes den can try to correct them. =D came home and pack my room! very messy. hahas. gotta eat dinner. damn hungry now.! hahas. bleahs. mom cooking. yummy food coming rite up. hehes. gtg help cook le.! hope piano lessons tmr will go smoothly. hehes. as usual, nvr practice again. bleahs. hahas.

-when decisions are made abruptly, they may be wrong.-
-hungry!-
-bored-

2005-06-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

woke up at nine today. bo bian. need go check thngs for ci'en. *c! i so gd* slpt quite late last nite. hahas. =p hahas. den after tt watch tv until abt 11am liddat den go bathe 'n' go meet ci'en at kovan at er 12noon bahs. went to orchard the far east there eat ya kun. hahas. den go take neoprint. aiyoh. not nice de. waste money. hahas. nvm. den ltr er. can't rmb go where. jus kept walking. =p ci'en bought so many things. hahas. now she is so damn broke.! lols. =p hmmm. i actually oso spent quite alot lar. hahas. but only $20 on track shorts. hehes. but can claim lehs. =D went to kovan to buy tt. hahas. abt six liddat went to hougang mall buy food for me sis. hope she gets well soon. hehes. =D nw at home chatting, watching vcds oso. hahas. qiang wei zi lian. hehes. church camp coming!!! hurray! =D

-church camp coming!-
-its all abt you.-
-i will be there for you-
-i will love you-
-i will miss you-
-i will care for you-

2005-06-05T04:57:00.000-07:00

hehes. today go church! lucky managed to wake up to go for service. or else i'm sure i will get scolded. =p hehes. had to sit bus 80 all the way back home. sit until my backside pain. hahas. =D went home bathe den use comp le. very tired. so went to slp. slept for one hour liddat den had to go for violin lesson. quite fun lar. hahas. but er. lazy to go. after violin come back eat dinner. den now chatting online lorr. =D hate ares. download all the movies cannot watch de!!! waste my time. hahas. =p

-happy-

tot that this was a very meaningful song we sang in church today. Free by hillsongs.

VERSE(1) would you believe me if I said... that we are the ones who can make the change in the world today... would you believe me if I said... that all of your dreams in your heart can come true... today... would you believe me if I said... that life could be all that you want it to be... today...

chorus
and if I had wings I would fly 'cause all that I need, You are and if the world caved in around me to You I'd still hold on cause You're all that I believe and the one that created me JESUS.. because of you.. I'm free

VERSE(2)
would you believe me if I said... that God can make miracles happen today would you believe me if I said... that you don't need to wait for the answers before.. you step out in faith.. would you believe me if I said that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE.. for God..
BRIDGE
just live your life.. with God inside you wont regret one moment of it and give all that you can for God... for Go

2005-06-04T06:36:00.000-07:00

er. this is my 3rd or 4th blog. i think. *could be more* hahas. =D hmmm. felt bored so decided to start a blog. (copy ah sia) hahas. today got bball match! although i did not play but we won! =D hehes. stackers rocks! had to go for the bball match so i couldn't go for church's band prac. hoped that julian received my sms. =D although we won the bball match. we played quite badly larr. hope that we can do better. *today weather very HOT!!* hahas. went to eat desert wif kah yin 'n' rebecca. hahas. i ate strawberry logan. hahas. tried it for the first time. lols. went home after that. =D my dad fetched me! hehes. *thks dad!* at home damn bored! watch tv. go online. hahas. tmr going church! =D haven do finish my qt journal. hehes. 2 weeks. jia lat. =p

-confused-
-sicked-
-feeling hopeless-